Our Abby

I have been walking through fire these last few weeks(i'll share in another post sometime). God has revealed Himself to me in the most amazing way.....He has covered me with His love. I felt so full of the Holy Spirit

And then

Bad news

Our dog Abby who is only 7. She is ONLY 7!!! Have you ever looked up the definition of cancer?

Dictionary.com says this: any evil condition or thing that spreads destructively

Destructively? what's that?

DESTROY

what's another definition of destroy? to defeat completely


I'd be lying if I told you I wasn't angry. You can be angry and not sin.....but I feel I put up walls with God this weekend. My spirit is so broken I cry and then I'm ok but then I look at her and I cry again. This dog was with me through some dark days of mine. She would come up and curl next to me when she saw me cry. She would sit with me when I journaled, or read the bible, or just read a book. This girl had such a heart. In the morning we would dance to Mandisa's 'Good Morning' song. I would tell her to do her happy dance and she'd spin in circles it was the cutest thing ever.
Now as I type this she is laying by the bed and doesn't have a lot of time left. Cancer has taken over her body. I sit here with my bible in my lap and praise/worship music on but I feel so empty. I am so crushed! Then a text comes through:

The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; He rescues those whose spirits are crushed. Psalm 34:18


Those little reminders that God is still here. A little love note from God telling me to press into Him. Let Him take my hurt, take my anger, take my crushed spirit. A reminder that I can't let this defeat me. Cancer may defeat Abby but I can't allow the enemy to let my hurt turn to bitterness and build up destructive walls between me and God. The enemy wants to use this to destroy God's plan for my life. He wants me to be angry with God. I have to keep pushing out thoughts I get and replace them with God's truth!

Thank you God for allowing us to have seven beautiful years with our Abby. She has brought us so much joy and I praise you for her! Please take good care of her Lord and she does a mean Happy Dance!!