Your Love For Me Is Overwhelming

Eleven years ago today I married my highschool sweetheart. He's away at camp and here I am alone with my thoughts but I know it's not by mistake. He's so hardworking he deserved a weekend away with the guys and my God had more to reveal to me about His love and He used this weekend to overwhelm me.

"You can love me more in a moment than other lovers could in a lifetime"

Let's go back to the beginning...Genesis. God created the heavens and the earth. Why?

For me! (For You)

Look at the beauty around you and it is proof of God's love. So why isn't HIS love enough? We women we melt with the sappy fairytales. We long to be the princess the prince rescues. We long to be pursued. Guess what? Even if our earthly lover isn't always the best example of mr prince charming give him a little slack since he's human and just not perfect but be encouraged that we have a God a perfect God who rescued us from death. We have a God who pursues us..HE chases us daily but do you block it at times like I block it? Or maybe ignore is a better word.. I ignore HIM and all HE wants is for me to crave HIM. All HE wants is ME, my time, my relationship, my love EVERYTHING but I'm too busy with my worldy pleasures I'm too busy being distracted and planning my own life that I don't always accept the pursuit. He's waiting with open arms every moment of everyday. Why isn't that enough? Why do I search for something I already have?

God my soul longs for you! God I desire to live a life so passionate for You a life so passionate that I get excited over something like brushing my teeth! God this life...this life You gave us is so absolutely amazing I desire to enjoy every bit of it! I desire to have everything YOU want me to have. Your ways are better God YOUR will not mine! I desire to be so close to YOU that I walk in your presence constantly. I long to be so in tuned with YOU that when I walk into a room the hairs stand up on people's arms because they feel YOU. The atmosphere immediately changes because of YOU! Your love God Your LOVE is so overwhelmingly beautiful! It's so much sweeter than anything I've tasted God! I accept the pursuit! Pull me closer God I want to know your heart! The more I find YOU the more I LOVE YOU! I praise you God!

Fulfilled

Matthew 6:3

New International Version (NIV)

³ But when you give to the needy, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing

 

 

When I started being vocal about my 30 Acts of Kindness I was drowning in thoughts of this verse and being a "hypocrite". It was like mr darkness was making me feel like a fake going public with it however I felt in my prayer time that I needed to tell others....

Let's look at another version of this verse..

 

Matthew 6:3

The Message (MSG)

^2-4 “When you do something for someone else, don’t call attention to yourself. You’ve seen them in action, I’m sure—‘playactors’ I call them—treating prayer meeting and street corner alike as a stage, acting compassionate as long as someone is watching, playing to the crowds. They get applause, true, but that’s all they get. When you help someone out, don’t think about how it looks. Just do it—quietly and unobtrusively. That is the way your God, who conceived you in love, working behind the scenes, helps you out.

 

God knows my heart. He knows I was doing this for HIS glory and when I started inviting people it was to inspire them to also do this! Start a LOVE REVOLUTION if you will. My friend Leah and I have been on this journey the last several months of learning LOVE and longing to change the entire world one by one!! I took the idea of doing it on my birthday from someone and I hope that someone will take the idea from me.

It's storming outside at the moment so I will try to touch on some of the events that took place..

It is so hard to explain the joy that overcame me this past weekend. God showed up BIG and just letting Him take full control and learn to make decisions and be BOLD was just crazy for me! I got out of my little comfort bubble and it was AMAZING!!! On Friday on my lunch break my girl Cate and I went out and about and it was so fun! We left quarters at the laundromat and laundry soap, we stopped and gave a Subway gift card to a lady ordering her food at subway (beautiful reaction), gave cupcakes out, paid for a lady behind us at McD's and fed the birds french fries, it was just awesome!! Saturday I met Leah for breakfast and this girl walked in with her mom and I just knew she was the one God wanted me to approach. I was so stinking nervous!!! As I was walking over to her her mom got up to go to the restroom CRAZZZZZZZY!!! I laid down money with a little inspirational card and I told her I wanted to pay for her breakfast and I told her how beautiful she was. AHHHHHH!!!! She was so thankful!!!! We went to a Sr Living Center and spent time with the residents and sang and it was so special! We adopted a little lady who helped lead the hymns I had picked out and it was incredible!! Such a great visit!! We stopped at Sheetz where I got rejected by a gentlemen (he didn't want me to help pay for his gas) and it was ok I need to learn rejection. Jesus was rejected not everyone recieved Him or will recieve HIM but maybe just maybe I planted a little seed. Leah paid for a guy's sodas and the reaction was priceless. He asked how much he owed her......WOW we owe Jesus NOTHING!!! Leah told that guy he owed her nothing! What a witness in itself!! The entire day just felt so annointed! It felt so put together! I handed a guy out in his yard a grocery gift card, I annonomously paid for a guys lunch at a restaurant, we visited an old friend (best reaction ever she was so excited!!) Sunday my sister and I were at the dollar store and she was trying to figure out if this box of diapers was a good price and she pointed to this younger lady and said I bet she would know well when she pointed to her the Holy Spirit IMMEDIATELY told me she was "the chosen one" HAHA! I was to bless her somehow. So I'm in line paying and she's two people behind me but guess what?!? The guy behind me let her infront of him CRAZZZZZZZYYY!!!!! So I offered to pay for her things and she told me I didn't have to and there were some akward moments but she hugged me and it felt so good! I caught the girl behind the register staring at me and I thought to myself wow I am not only reaching the people I'm blessing but the people watching. People are watching and it is so much more important to me to just be the hands and feet of Jesus. To live this life pleasing to HIM and give HIM ALL the glory always!!! I also gave out a Kmart gift card (she asked why too funny), left little notes and money around, left quarters at the carwash, dropped off lunch for local EMS workers(very thankful). Last night I paid for a guys ice cream and he was so shocked it was adorable!! He couldn't believe I was paying for him...

 

Did I complete all my 30 acts of kindness? Honestly I'm not certain I threw MY plan out the window and I plan on looking for opportunities each and everyday. I feel so fulfilled!!

 

I am humbled to be a part of life at this exact moment and to be part of a generation seeking God! (Psalm 24:6)

I challenge you to bless someone this week!
♥

 

My soul longs for you

I have these moments where I think about my Abby girl and I just cry. I long to have her with me and this longing made me think....

Those moments/days after Jesus died how did everyone close to HIM feel? When Jesus died I imagine those two days were very depressing. I can feel that longing to be with Him like His disciples did. To yearn to see HIS face again, to spend time with HIM, to talk to HIM again....

Long as a verb is to crave, to desire strongly, yearn.

My soul longs to be with my Abby girl but even more so my soul longs for God! I desire strongly to be with HIM, to seek HIS face, to spend time in HIS presence...  How absolutely overwhelmed with joy the disciples and Mary and the people they witnessed to must have been in those days following Jesus' resurrection. When HE revealed Himself again! WOW! He isn't dead He is alive and He is with us when we receive Him! WOW WOW WOW!

HALLELUJAH!!

 God sent Jesus to die to take back the authority of the enemy. Before the cross the only thing to help sin was to sacrifice an animal and only the "religious" peeps could do it. After the cross anyone and everyone can repent and receive Jesus as their savior- EVERYONE!! It doesn't matter who you are what you have done you can have the Holy Spirit live inside of you.....

How absolutely mind blowing! Us, the saved proclaimed christians take for granted that because of Jesus sin has been washed away. Because of Jesus the Holy Spirit can dwell in us. Because of Jesus we can enjoy life. Did I mention the Holy Spirit can dwell in us?

dwell

in us

DUDE

dwell- to live or stay as a permanent resident; reside


HE can live inside of us people- and let me go a little further saying not just live but God's will maybe just maybe is for us to do the things Jesus did. Like maybe just maybe HE gave us HIS authority like the bible says. We have the keys to the kingdom my friends it's time to do GREAT things for the kingdom!

I feel a revival on it's way!!

HALLELUJAH!!

but first let's be kind to some peeps! Yesterday I was so overwhelmed with dread and I just wanted to go crawl in a hole.....know why? I'm about to do amazing things for God's kingdom and the enemy doesn't like it so he will do everything he can to stop it!

NOT HAPPENING!!

NOPE!!

I have 30 random acts of kindness to do buckwheat BACK OFF!! IN JESUS NAME!!

Go be kind!
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