So Over It

We all have bad days and we just need to learn from them and move on..


Success is getting back up and trying again....and trying again.....and trying again!!!!

Tonight was a sucky workout night and I can only blame myself. I was just irritated I don't know my own irritation irritated me. blek! I just wasn't into it at all plus the husband started canning peppers and there was a strong vinegar smell which added to my irritation then my dog kept licking my sweat and that was extremely irritating so by the last maybe 15 minutes I was just half assing it.

Makes me mad at myself that I became "unglued" with my workout! I SHOULD just turn around and go make myself go do it again as punishment but naaaaaaa!! Maybe my body just needs to rest.

The diet on the other hand is going great! I snuck on the scale this morning and was down three pounds!!!!!! Could be just water weight with all the peeing I'm doing but hey I'll take it I haven't lost more than like 0.5lb in months haha! Ok ok I guess weeks but it's hard when you loose every week fairly consistently and then BAM done~ plateau city and you are working your tooshy off but yea not really off because it's not shrinking!!!! EWWWWW!!!!! GRRRRR!!! I think this diet may just be what helps me get through these last 20 ish pounds!!!!!

Don't give up!

Live Deep!
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Challenge Yourself

I'm not gonna lie there are days I just feel like quitting and eating whatever the crap I want to. I've been at this so long I just get tired and frustrated and jealous of those who don't have to work as hard. Sooooo what do I do? I challenge myself even further because I'm INSANE!!!

I have been allowing myself foods that are NOT beneficial for me and will NOT help with my continued weight loss. So I researched diets and I found one that should help with my energy, speeding up my metabolism, and keep me healthy! HOWEVER I am supposed to drink a gallon of water a day. A FREAKING GALLON!!!!! Do you know what that does to a 5' gal like myself? I feel like I could float (hmm my ninja jumps should be light and airy look out Shaun T) plus I live in the bathroom so annoying! But I'm doing it! I'm challenging and disciplining myself because I want to continue to change and better myself!

It's so hard! We are coming into fall which means pumpkin spice cappuccino, holiday meals (mashed potato goodness), pumpkin roll, etc.... I LOVE food!!!!!! However I will not give up I have come to far, worked too hard to quit and go back to bad habits!

Keep it up friends!! You can freaking do it!!

Stay healthy because God has the best plans for your life!

Keep challenging yourself!

Live Deep
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Be YOU

Don't you dare ever ever ever be jealous of anybody else!

Know who you are in Jesus!

Know that you are AWESOME!

Know that you can do ANYTHING with God's strength!

I use to waste my time being jealous of others but you know what I don't know what they go through. I don't know how hard they work to get to where they are. I now believe in myself and I am learning I absolutely have greatness in me!


So do you!!

Work hard & strive to be the best YOU!

Follow your dreams and work hard to achive them!

If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude! - Maya Angelou


LIVE DEEP!
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Month 1 (part 2): Day 8

It's 9:40 p.m. and I just finished working out. Peeps I've usually been in bed an hour or more by now this is INSANE for me!! I met my girls after work for din din and got home, chatted with hubby, and tried to find a hotel for a wedding we are going to in September. Then after I booked a hotel I thought I'd better get my butt on the floor exercising INSANELY because this girl is soooooooo buying a dress!!!!!! I have not worn a skirt or a dress in at least 5 years probably more! However a dress means legs and arms showing so I needs to get cracking!!


I think the gym has mirrors that make you look fat on purpose so you keep coming back! Who is with me on this? I was at the gym today and BARF! HOWEVER as I was getting dressed into my gym clothes tonight I saw abs forming........ ABS!! Ummmmm I have not seen them.....hmmmmmm ever? Well no, I saw them for a brief period of time right before the marriage and then BAM they were gone like a bacon sundae! POOF!


Friends don't you dare give up! I know how much it just sucks! I know how much you just wish you didn't have to work so hard at it. I know the feeling of just wanting to eat whatever and not have to worry. Let's face the facts we were not blessed with the eating everything in sight but not gaining a pound body. I'm telling you the feeling of accomplishment, the confidence, it's just all so very worth it!! I am absolutely not going back! NOPE! I will not cry another tear in my closet (well except when it needs cleaned and I'm overwhelmed) ! I will not not go out because I don't have anything cute to wear. I WILL NO LONGER WEAR A GIRDLE!!!!!!!!!!!!

do a little no girdle jig!! whoop whoop!!

Keep it up! YOU CAN DO IT!!

Don't only dig deep but LIVE DEEP!!
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What is your Nineveh?

Happy Tuesday!

I hope you are all doing well, staying disciplined, & enjoying life! I know I know life happens and we get caught up in our problems but I'm learning my attitude towards my problem is so very important. I'm also learning a little thing called obedience and my attitude towards obedience! ugh

I am a very rebellious human being and I'm certain I am not alone in this one! God laid something on my heart months ago and I ignored it. I shrugged it off made a million excuses, let my bitterness get in the way, and just plain pushed it from my mind. The thing is God gives sencond chances (and more). He keeps pursuing us giving us opportunites to obey. He is so cool and I just fall more and more in love with Him!

Storytime~

I saw the production Jonah at Sight and Sound over the weekend and if you get a chance just go see it it is so good!! I keep thinking of Jonah and how the Ninevites killed his father. The pain and bitterness Jonah felt towards these awful people must have been unbearable at times. Then after years of hearing nothing from God feeling like God forgot him, God spoke to Jonah and told him to go save the Ninevites. SAVE THE NINEVITES! God wanted to save these awful awful people and he wanted to do it through Jonah. Of course Jonah didn't want to do it those people don't deserve God's grace! So instead of immediately obeying God Jonah ran away but let's fast forward through the story and God saves Jonah by having a whale swallow him otherwise he would've drowned. HOW CRAZY! God gave Jonah a second chance in the craziest way! Who gets swallowed by a whale I mean really? Ummm Jonah does!! So Jonah was obedient this time and went to Nineveh and preached and those people repented of their sins and were saved!

Friends do you have a Nineveh? Something God has laid on your heart and you haven't obeyed it yet? Just surrender and obey it will be so worth it! He has the best plans for you!

Here is today's devotional from Joyce Meyer's book 'Hearing from God each morning' I feel it ties in pretty well.

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Pray, Then Plan

Many plans are in a man's mind, but it is the Lord's purpose for him that will stand. -Proverbs 19:21

God's Word shows us clearly that we need to listen for His voice and commit our ears to a covenant with Him, letting Him sanctify and circumcise our ears so we can hear Him. Many times God clearly shows us what to do, but we don't do it because we don't like His plan. We can even pretend spiritual deafness when we don't like what we clearly hear Him say. Our fleshly appetites and desires can hinder our acceptance of God's truth.

We can come face to face with truth and still not accept it. I admit that truth is often much easier to accept when it concerns other people and their lives than it is when it concerns me and my life. We have a plan for how we want our lives to go, and we have a way that we want to work out that plan. Most of the time we want God to listen to our plan and make it work instead of listening for His plan and asking Him to do what He needs to do to fulfill it through us. We always need to pray first and then make plans instead of making plans and praying for God to make them work. Listen for God's plan; follow it, and you will always succeed.

God's Word for you today: Get God's plan before making your own plans.

So so so so so excited!!!!!

I am sore this time around with month 1.... CRRRAAAAZZZZYYYY!!!!


So guess what?!!?? I am so so so so excited!!!

Did you guess yet?

Ready?

It's pretty exciting!!


Here it goes...


I lost 2% body fat

AND


AND

drumroll please


I bought a size 8 dress pant

yup

size 8

I AM IN SINGLE DIGIT PANTS!!!!!!!!!!! I have not seen single digits in 10 years peeps 10 years!!!!

YOU CAN DO IT!!!

I don't care if you may never see a size 8 maybe your smallest will be a 12~ YOU CAN FREAKING DO IT!!

Work hard & do it!!

DIG DEEP!
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Day 4

Pure Cardio is crazy & I love it! I am really pushing to last the entire minute doing the exercises and I just feel so much stronger! However no worries I still yell at Shaun T & grunt a bit! LOL

P.S.~ I snuck on the scale this morning and I'm down the pounds I gained last week plus another .5 so if I eat clean today it should be a great great weigh in day!!


Dancing a jig!!


The finish line is less than two months away!!

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Best Decision Ever

I made an awesome awesome decision doing this! I have no idea why but this time around is even better!! It's like a renewed joy for this workout it's crazy! Just like we need to continue to renew our minds we need to renew our workouts haha! I was just going through the motions in month 2 and something wasn't right so I stopped and made new goals and started over!

Don't be afraid to just start over!

My endurance is better! I'm pushing more! I can jump higher, do more pushups, my form is cleaner it's just all around better for me and I'm setting little goals for myself! It's like a competition with myself to improve each time!

I LOVE IT!!

I do need to get the nutrition thing figured out though. I fell off the wagon a bit and now this week I'm back on track eating healthy but I don't think I'm eating enough and I stopped tracking my food weeks back. OOPS! Hey people I have been working hardcore at this weightloss thing for nine freaking months~ I shuda popped out a freaking baby by now!

It's hard work & I know it's going to be hard keeping the weight off! HOWEVER I am one determined spider turtle! HA! spider turtle that's new!! Like it! =D


Keep it up my peeps!

You got it in you to be the best that you can possibly be!!

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INSANITY DAY 1

Nope this is not a joke and yes I am a crazy girl!! Last week I almost almost started this program over and I kept going but today I was talking to a great friend and she started over how hilarious! So she absolutely inspired me to do the same! Yup with only four days left I am starting this thang over and no I'm not just starting month 2 over I am starting the ENTIRE INSANITY program over!! Say it go ahead and say it I know what you are thinking.....

I AM AN IDIOT!

HAHA!

Don't care! I was just not in it with month 2 something was off for me...maybe I wasn't ready yet I'm not sure but I'm excited again! I'm excited to improve and achieve for EXCELLENCE! Starting before I complete it will help me to want to finish it and not give up!

I am going to be a lean mean fighting machine!!


WOOT WOOT!

Reach your goals and don't be afraid to stop and start over!

Achieve for greatness!

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INSANITY DAY 57 ish

I can't count~ just sayin'


Well my friends this is my last week of INSANITY! It's been INSANE to say the least! I am actually going to complete something I have started and that right there is AWESOMESAUCE! I am about to break my give up reputation!! woot woot!!

I am tired I ain't gonna lie! I am losing momentum and I'm ready for this to be over! I am ready to concentrate on weight lifting again and switch things up! I am however going to do this routine from start to finish AGAIN I just haven't decided when. Maybe around the holidays to keep me motivated! ;)

I'm not going to reach the goal I was hoping for but I'm just truly proud of myself for doing this! I have become more goal oriented, more disciplined, STRONGER, I am a freaking spider monkey boys & girls like ninja turtle spider monkey! When I started I could barely do one push up the girl kind! eeek! Now I can do 16 guy push ups heck maybe more I'm not sure I'll let ya know! =D


Dig Deep my friends you absolutely have it in you!!


Keep on keeping on!
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Insanity Day 49 or 50 or somethin'

Well the finish line is near my friends! What an INSANE two months this has been! I'm honestly debating sending in for the free T-shirt now or taking a small break and doing it all over again. I know I have more in me to give! I can amp things up and work harder! I only lost somewhere between 5-10 lbs on this program but the strength and attitude I developed is just worth all the soreness and exhaustion. I have muscle under this last bit of fat I'd like to shed. ;) Pretty

                                                  R I D I C U L O U S

Never Give up! If you are still trying to lose weight keep going! You may have hit a plateau but keep truckin' it won't last forever if you discipline yourself and stay determined! Get plenty of sleep because when you are tired is when you slip up. STAY STRONG! You have it in you to be the best you that you can be!




DIG DEEP
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Is God Waiting For You?

Well the weekend is about over and we are about to start another week. Oh Mr. Monday how you are hated by many! You know what though we have the choice to dread it, grumble about it, moan and complain and sigh and stomp our feet and have our hissy fit OR we can choose to have a good attitude about it and be obedient to our sweet God and do as Philippians 2:14 says: Do everything without grumbling and complaining. HA!

Maybe this song will encourage you: http://youtu.be/AnmWwudeqfM (Mandisa- Good Morning feat. Toby Mac)

Storytime~

Towards the end of the Made To Crave bible study until recently I have been struggling to really find that closeness with God again. I felt His presence when He lifted me from my pit and when He spoke to my heart about leading the bible study. He gave me strength through the weight loss and it has been so amazing but then suddenly I felt NOTHING! I was in a rut with losing weight and slipping from God and it almost felt like God abandoned me in a way~ silly I know~ but I was so scared that I would allow myself to go back to old ways but then He brought me INSANITY at just the right time and yup it has been INSANE!! I have been taught even more discipline and learning a lot about myself and my strengths... it's been the best thing ever! However yet again I feel that slip away from God like maybe I've taken control back again but the thing is God is so good and so faithful and so very much there. It's like each time He brings me to a new level but it is up to me to do my part as well and to absolutely let God have control!!

Ok so every year my mother- in- law and I go to the Joyce Meyer conference and it's always awesome awesome awesome but deep down I just knew there would be something different about this year for me. I knew God had something to tell me this year and I needed to feel His presence in a big way infact I was believing hard for Him to speak to my heart. One thing Joyce said hit me hard you see her teaching was on obedience and on Friday evenings session she asked a question that knocked me over. You ready? She asked this: Are you waiting on God or is God waiting on you? OUCH OUCH OUCH! Friends this entire time I've been on this journey knowing I'm in "the waiting period" HOWEVER I'm looking at it very much in a different way now. God has big plans ready for my life however I'm not being obedient there is a lot I have to learn and grow with and I know without a doubt that He is absolutely waiting on me. He is waiting on me to take a step of faith, He is waiting on me to clean up my act. Friends it ain't gonna be easy I can tell you that but the awesome thing is if I just take time to be with God and just come into His presence and ask him to Empower me to Obey. Yes, we can ask Him to help us obey Him. Crazy? I don't care! I need help I'm not afraid to admit it!! I am a sinner and I mess up tons! God help me! I want the life of peace and joy and happiness and I will continue to be miserable if I continue to be rebellious and disobedient and (cough cough) bratty! Just like I workout when I don't feel like it I have got to be nice when I don't feel like it, be sweet, stop the snarky comments, stop the judging the gossiping, be the Christian God has called me to be. You say it's too hard what's the point? Ummm being miserable is hard! Being miserable sucks! I would rather my flesh have a temporary time of hissy fits and learn some discipline in order to live a great life. Plus I want to take my loved ones home to heaven with me and how do I do that when I'm a bratty hypocrite of a Jesus girl?

Character is developed when we do what God tells us to do whether we want to or not. (Life point from Joyce Meyer)

The world wants tolerance but God wants holy. -Joyce Meyer

Christians we have got to step up our game. We have got to shake off the hypocrite reputation. Start each morning asking God for help! Start each morning reciting 1 Corinthians 13 if we have to. Get on your knees and pray! Find a quiet place~ there are times I just sit in my car after pulling into the garage. I just sit there and talk to God. Whatever works just do it!! Dust off your bible & read it!! It is such a beautiful thing being close to God. Friends if you have never received God as your savior please please I ask you to do it. Repent of your sins and ask Him into your heart and into your life. He is the best thing that will ever happen to you!! No, life won't instantly be rainbows and puppies but you will have someone to walk through life with. Someone to pick you up when you fall, someone to cry with when people let you down. Life is so so short we have got to take it seriously! We need to enjoy it and want God's best for us! He wants us to be obedient for a reason.....to help us!

Have an awesome week! Dig deep! Don't give up!

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Here is today's devotion from 'Hearing from God each Morning'

God Sees Your Heart

-Joyce Meyer

Thank God, though you were once slaves of sin, you have become obedient with all your heart to the standard of teaching in which you were instructed and to which you were committed. Romans 6:17

When we receive Christ as our Savior, God gives us a new heart- one that wants to do what is right. However, it takes a while for our behavior to catch up with our new heart and that is often very frustrating. One part of us wants to do right, yet another part of us fights against it. That is the war between the flesh and the spirit that Paul discusses in Galations 5:17.

At the new birth, God equips us inwardly with all we need to live holy, obedient lives. We are made new (2 Corinthians 5:17) I like to say we are made new spiritual clay and we spend our lives letting the Holy Spirit mold us into the image of Christ (Romans 8:29). We need to thank God that we have a new heart, one that wants to be obedient.

Celebrate your progress and don't be discouraged because God sees your heart. If we let go of what lies behind and keep pressing toward the place of total obedience, God is pleased. We are learning to walk with God and walking is the slowest mode of travel that exists. You may not be where you want to be, but thank God you have an obedient heart.

God's Word For You Today: Focus on Jesus today, not on your failures.