Tests

So we got our Abby tested yesterday to make sure it's cancer for sure. We will find out today and I have a peace about whatever the outcome is.
(Yes, we were just going by our vets thoughts and opinions before....)

pretty dumb huh?

This morning it made me think how sometimes we treat our Christian walk. We expect our pastor to "feed" us Sunday to last us all week. We go by what he talks about and the verses he reads and we believe him and his annointing. Friends, we need to dig into the word for ourselves as well. We can't put all that pressure on our Sunday morning worship we have to worship everyday. We can't expect everything our pastors say to be true we have to find out for ourselves. ( I am absolutely not telling you to doubt your pastor don't misunderstand this. I am saying to read the bible and know God intimately for yourself don't expect everyone else to spoon feed you)

Just like we are finding out for ourselves what is wrong with Abby instead of going by one persons opinion.

ALSO gossip~ we can't just take what we hear and take it as a truth and then keep repeating it to others. And saying to someone else "I'm not sure this is true BUT..." counts too.... STOP DOING IT!!

I need to leave for work so I'm sure I'll fix this post up or add to it but I wanted to get these thoughts out quick before I left it go...

Our Abby

I have been walking through fire these last few weeks(i'll share in another post sometime). God has revealed Himself to me in the most amazing way.....He has covered me with His love. I felt so full of the Holy Spirit

And then

Bad news

Our dog Abby who is only 7. She is ONLY 7!!! Have you ever looked up the definition of cancer?

Dictionary.com says this: any evil condition or thing that spreads destructively

Destructively? what's that?

DESTROY

what's another definition of destroy? to defeat completely


I'd be lying if I told you I wasn't angry. You can be angry and not sin.....but I feel I put up walls with God this weekend. My spirit is so broken I cry and then I'm ok but then I look at her and I cry again. This dog was with me through some dark days of mine. She would come up and curl next to me when she saw me cry. She would sit with me when I journaled, or read the bible, or just read a book. This girl had such a heart. In the morning we would dance to Mandisa's 'Good Morning' song. I would tell her to do her happy dance and she'd spin in circles it was the cutest thing ever.
Now as I type this she is laying by the bed and doesn't have a lot of time left. Cancer has taken over her body. I sit here with my bible in my lap and praise/worship music on but I feel so empty. I am so crushed! Then a text comes through:

The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; He rescues those whose spirits are crushed. Psalm 34:18


Those little reminders that God is still here. A little love note from God telling me to press into Him. Let Him take my hurt, take my anger, take my crushed spirit. A reminder that I can't let this defeat me. Cancer may defeat Abby but I can't allow the enemy to let my hurt turn to bitterness and build up destructive walls between me and God. The enemy wants to use this to destroy God's plan for my life. He wants me to be angry with God. I have to keep pushing out thoughts I get and replace them with God's truth!

Thank you God for allowing us to have seven beautiful years with our Abby. She has brought us so much joy and I praise you for her! Please take good care of her Lord and she does a mean Happy Dance!!

Trucking along

Insanity is going ok.... I say ok because I am so flipping TIRED!! GRRRRR!! So I haven't been doing it every day but I'm trucking along. With that said I started logging my food and OUCH!
I need to be darn tootin' thankful I have not gained back weight! YIKES! Shame on me! It's time to dig into Made To Crave again fo' sure!!

My soon to be sister-in-law joined me last evening and it was fun having a partner in the insanity maddness!! Wanna know a secret? I really wanted her to be exhausted and sore sore sore..... How evil is that? Would it seriously make me feel better about myself in some way!?!? Really?  I mean I took three months off I guess I wanna believe I'm still a freaking ninja or something! HA! She said she wasn't too sore today but let's wait until tomorrow! MWUAHAHAHAHA!!

(love you sissy~ mwuah)

♥

Diggin' Deepish

Zacchaeus the short guy

This morning's Daily Bread was in Luke 19 and about Zacchaeus. I like Zacchaeus! He was a cool dude! He was someone I learned about at an early age with that little song about the Sycamore tree!

Ok yea the taxpayers didn't think he was so cool but I can relate to him because

A. He is a sinner
B. He was short~ short people ROCK


What stood out to me today was the kid overpaid taxpayers and pocketed the excess and became rich. So he wasn't very popular YET

YET

Jesus still met him where he was. Well, Zacchaeus had to climb a tree to see him and Jesus picked him out of the crowd and invited Himself to his house. WOW! AND guess what the crowd did? They COMPLAINED!

⁷ All the people saw this and began to mutter, “He has gone to be the guest of a sinner.”


There is nothing nothing nothing we can do to earn God's grace! NOTHING! So why do believers *cough cough* sinners complain so much about other sinners?

STOP COMPLAINING!!!

Philippians 2:14

New International Version (NIV)

¹⁴ Do everything without grumbling or arguing,

We need to be praising God for His love and that no matter what we do in life He still offers forgiveness & salvation. How offensive we can be to God but His grace is just AHHHHHH we don't deserve it!

Thank You, Lord Jesus for loving us and for sacrificing your life so that we can receive the Holy Spirit in us! The Holy Spirit isn't just available as a free ride to heaven but as strength to finish out your work! Help us to finish this life right and honor only You father!

♥

 

Scrape me off of the floor

I was even more sore the next day and didn't work out. I crawled out of bed and shuffled to the bathroom it was a crazy sight. Oh Man I need to learn NOT to go that long without doing some kind of exercise where I'm using my muscles. Yes I was still going to the gym three times a week but let's be honest I was doing the same thing and using the same weight of weights and not challenging myself.

BAD BAD CHOICE

I worked out last night after work and man oh man I just don't remember these workouts being this frustrating!! Yet after I finally completed I felt so empowered.....well I felt empowered while I was still on the floor huffing and puffing! HA!

YOU CAN DO IT!!

Even if your goals have nothing to do with weightloss keep at them! Push through!!

Phil 4:13

dig deep!!!
♥

First sore muscles of the year

Welp I am sore today!! And so it begins....

I am about to do another INSANITY workout please pray for me!

LOL

I am enjoying these days off of work and let me be honest in saying I truly don't feel like working out right now. I would much rather curl up on the couch with my soft cozy blanket and sugary latte reading a book HOWEVER I know it's good for me & my body so

Let's Do This!!

I can read after I workout!


DIGGING DEEP in 2013

New Year New Goals New Mercies

Happy New Year!!

2012 was a challenging year but such a good year! 2012 was my year of redemption! As I look back on it I am so humbled and so so thankful! God carried me through some challenging events and He never never forsakes us! ahhhhhhh so in love! ♥

I am not gonna lie I enjoyed eating whatever I wanted and not gain weight. I never experienced that before. In the past if I went on a two day binge I could gain five pounds back so quickly and sometimes more but for whatever reason these last three months I've maintained my weight. HOWEVER if I'm going to carry out God's plans for my life it's time to get back in the healthy boat because let's face it I am not feeling 100%. I get tired easily, I am weaker, I feel lousy, etc.. So I started Insanity today and only got through the fit test! I am exhausted! (((sigh))) I lost strength and I can't expect to just jump back in where I left off when I took a three month break. It's going to take hard work, consistency, dedication, renewal of my mind etc...

Make friends with your treadmill peeps YOU CAN DO IT!! God has amazing plans for your life but you have got to take care of your body where the Holy Spirit dwells!

YOU WERE MADE FOR MORE!!

This also makes me think about my relationship with God. I can't just live life my way and fall into the arms of God when things go bad. Of course God will be with me everytime I fall. His mercies are new everyday PRAISE GOD but if I want to truly live a greater life for Him I need to walk in His presence every single day even on the good days! Sometimes I have a tendency to take back control when things are going well. I am determined to break that habit! This year in 2013 I want to be with Him every moment of everyday! To crave Him! To desire to walk in the Spirit and to stay tuned to His voice leading me.

January 3.
Keep in Touch with God- Joyce Meyer

Blessed (happy, fortunate, prosperous, and enviable) is the man who walks and lives not in the counsel of the ungodly [following their advice, their plans and purposes]... But his delight and desire are in the law of the Lord, and on His law (the precepts, the instructions, the teachings of God) he habitually meditates (ponders and studies) by day and by night.
Psalm 1:1-2

Keep in touch with God today; stay tuned to His voice. You may have a plan for the day, but God may lead you in a totally different direction if you are sensitive to the Holy Ghost. Be brave enough to flow with what you feel in your heart God wants you to do.

Today is going to be a good day. Listen for the voice of God to lead you. Be determined to walk in the Spirit and stay in the flow of God's leading today.

Starting Your Day Right: Devotions for each morning of the year.

I am excited for God's plans in 2013! Let's make this a GREAT year for God!!