One week ago we had to make the hardest decision of our life. Today I have this dark cloud over me despite the beautiful sunshine outside.
I'm not dealing well at all with this loss and I'm uncertain as to what is at the root of it all. Life needs to go on, I can't walk around depressed bringing everyone else around me down. I can't expect everyone to watch what they talk about afraid I may start sobbing (which happened at work already). Now I'm not expecting myself to bounce back quickly and not be sad of course I will be sad but people the emotions inside this girl are CRAZY right now!!!!!! I am very quiet...I don't feel like having conversations. I just want to lay in bed and be left alone. I do not want to be around anyone I just want to curl up by myself and be alone.
This Jesus girl doesn't cope well when life doesn't happen as she wanted it to. I want Abby back and to feel whole again! :(
This sucks!!
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