It's not fair!!

Abby is back to eating like the Lab she is. I am still cooking her food and now she is on a few different meds. She gained some weight back but she lost so much muscle mass she doesn't look herself. She is sleeping pretty well but that's basically all she does is lay around and sleep except for when she goes to the bathroom which we have to help her do.

It sucks!

I have these moments where I just get angry and wanna throw a "It's not fair" tantrum! She's only 7 but she looks 17. She watches the other girls run around and play ball and the look on her face....

oh the look on her face

I wanna cry!!

Ok I am crying....it sucks!! She barely walks and we have to hold her to potty because she doesn't have the muscle strength to do it herself. It is just so sad.

Then I think about my grandmother who died from ALS. My grandfather spent many years taking care of her. WOW! What a great man! He fed her and bathed her and was with her every moment. Then I think of my past supervisors son who is only in his 40's and has this disease. Why?

WHY?

I understand the enemy created disease this is not from God we should not use this as an excuse to be angry with God!! This is the enemy's plan to shake us....to get us off of God's path. I think of the young man with ALS and how he has such a great attitude through all of this. My grandmother had such a beautiful spirit about her as well and my grandfather never once complained about taking care of her. WOW! We need to take our difficult hardships and find ways to glorify God!

How can I use Abby's story to glorify God?

My constant boast is God, I can never thank you enough! Psalm 44:8

God I praise you for the beautiful 7 years Abby had and now I ask that you give us strength as we continue to take care of her and keep her next moments/years beautiful!! When I throw my it's not fair tantrums I have to remember that you dying on the cross for me absolutely was not fair. I don't deserve your love but I praise you for it! I am blessed!

♥