Power

I have to start from the beginning on what I've been dealing with in my spiritual life.

It's been HARD HARD HARD

And I'm warning you now to have an opened mind because you are about to know me a little more and yes I am a crazy Jesus freak!

I have been met in a big way by God. He has answered a ton of prayers I have been praying consistently about the calling on my life. I found a church, I have been digging deep into His word, etc... You know the "normal" Christanese stuff. With that all said I still felt this dread around me. I still almost had a little bit of the depression emotions in me and I couldn't figure it out. Then I started praying the

"I surrender all" prayer
"God I'm moving out you move completely in" prayer
"More of you less of me" prayer
"God show me what in my life is coming in between you and me" prayer


Well, God has shown me my thoughts and my words are so so so so very important! What I speak is what's in my heart. What I think is what I will eventually speak out and so on. I have got to get a handle on my thoughts and what I speak.

Then He reveals to me that I have allowed the Spirit of Indimidation into my soul. This is a spirit from the enemy. The enemy uses this against us to get us off of God's path for our life. It explains the insecurity, the fears, the depression, the anxiety, the wishy washy behavior and confusion, and so much more.....

Storytime~
So a few weekends ago my husband left around 4 a.m. to go hunting. I was awake and went out to the kitchen, brought Abby in the bedroom, turned the night light on, did some facebook, and then tried to go back to sleep. I didn't get back to sleep because I heard a noise and in my mind it sounded like a woman screaming and crying. (Bobcats sound like this which I had no clue at the time) I stood straight up and said 'What do I do?' I was so scared and I shook so bad I couldn't move. I will not repeat the thoughts that started flowing through my mind but I will just let you know I watched murder crap on t.v. and.....ugh! So my entire weekend was spent in fear pacing around the house rebuking what's his face and reading bible verses outloud. Thinking I'm crazy yet?
I can't stress to you enough how much power God's word has. I'm telling you it was a fight for my life but He broke through the fear. I still have insecurities about being alone at night until the hubs comes home but wow it is nothing compared to that weekend. POWER IN TRUTH!! And this is how cool God works.... there is going to be a bible study on a book I just bought from John Bevere called Breaking The Spirit of Indimidation!! I am sooooooooo super excited!!!

Ok onto Abby

So again here comes the crazy just warning you~

If you would've saw Abby last week you would've seen how bad she was. She could barely walk, she got so out of breathe, and she was very spacey. She would just sit looking around the room it was awful. Oh and she picked weird places to lay like on my shoes in the closet.....strange. This dog honestly looked like death so when I took her to the vet and she said cancer I believed her. People there were a few times that weekend I thought she was taking her last breathes. There was one moment Sunday she came upstairs (which she hasn't done in a month) and she wanted in the closet. I thought she wanted to go hide to die. It was the saddest moment for me. So I just laid on the floor with her and talked to her and I layed my hands on her and was praying. At one moment I kid you not I pictured Jesus picking her up and holding her and then in the next moment she was doing her happy dance.

He healed our Abby I have no doubt in my mind!! NONE!

Monday when the husband and I started talking bloodwork I had this peace that she was fine. (of course I started to doubt from time to time that's how the mind works but you have to push those thoughts out)

Bloodwork came back yesterday and she has no cancer!!!!! Infact she has NO DISEASES at all!!!!! Just this skin infection we still need to deal with.

We aren't out of the woods yet but the power of prayer and the power of God's healing has been shown to me in such a HUGE way!!! You can tell me the vet shouldn't have diagnosed her like that without knowing. You can tell me she didn't have cancer from the start...tell me whatever your opinion is

God healed her

I'm a proud Jesus Freak!

♥