So I confessed through writing and to a few people outloud that I believe Abby was healed. However days went by and she wasn't improving and when someone would ask how she was I started to become negative, concerned, worried. Now of course being worried is just a part of being a mama I'm sure however I don't want to be this little fake Jesus girl. When I say something I want to back it up and continue believing it. God is showing me to watch what comes out of my mouth and friends it is soooooooo difficult. My flesh is hurting bad! I just never truly realized how much negativity consumes me. The snarky comments, the judgments, shame on me!! No wonder I fell into depression all I spoke and all I thought was focused on ME ME ME and soooooooo negative!! I'm a work in progress but God is so sweet and powerful things happen when you start speaking His word outloud, when you start being positive and turning conversations around, yup I mess up but it's ok I'm not perfect!
So anyway off my soapbox and onto Abby. She is not improving so I took her for Xrays. The xrays once again showed no signs of cancer!!! PTL!!!! The vet wouldn't 100% diagnose what's going on (because I don't think she knows). All she could say was she has the lungs of a very old Lab (she's only 7). We got more meds which are making her sick and now she won't eat which is a side effect. Why do we take medicines that heal one thing but cause other issues? It blows my mind. She's also on lasix so we are up a few times during the night letting her out and the prednisone makes her thirsty so she likes to get up in the middle of the night for drinks as well. (yes we is sleep deprived) She still just lays around. She can barely take a few steps before laying down for a rest. It makes me sad. I feel helpless.
All I can do is trust God and enjoy every moment with her. Keep thanking Him for allowing me to take care of her.
She's such a sweety!!
Oh you want to know about the diet?
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