Day 30~ Stinkin' Thinkin'

I truly wish I would've posted on Day 28 which was weigh in day. I was on top of the world happy because I FINALLY reached a total weight loss of 40 lbs!!!!! (actually 41) I looked in the mirror and just thanked God for getting me this far! It's been difficult yet the results are making it so very worth it.

This week however I was hit with awful mood swings that are extremely hard to control. It's more difficult for me to just slap on a smile and fake through it. (use to be pretty good at that) So as I push through the poopy emotions I am pushing through the disappointing fact that it's day 30 and I have only lost 4 lbs with Insanity. It's hard to concentrate on the fact that this was the push I needed to get over my hurdle. That I was working so very hard on my own and lost 35 lbs but then my body finally said I'm done and taking a break. So instead of taking the chance of letting old habits creep back in I bought INSANITY to push through it and not give up! It's hard to concentrate on the fact that I've lost around 2% of my body fat and around 5 inches. I can do walking planks, and push up jacks, and moving push ups when I started I could barely do one. I have worked so so so hard but this week it's hard for me to focus on the positives but guess what I am doing it anyway! I have worked so so hard and I'm stronger and slowly getting leaner I absolutely am not giving up! I want badly to just say "screw it what's the point".  The husband just took a service call and I want badly to just hop in the car and go to McDonalds. You know what I have learned discipline in this journey and to fight emotions and to fight the cravings and I'm not stopping now! I have come to damn far for a stupid french fry to ruin it all!! I'm gonna put my big girl panties on and get through this emotional hurdle and keep pushing on & DIGGING DEEP!


You can do it!!! Push through the emotions..... the stinkin' thinkin' and realize you are AWESOME and made for so much more than a food addiction or laziness or grumpy attitudes whatever it may be. You were made for excellence and to be the best you that you can possibly be!

Don't you dare go around that same mountain because I sure ain't!!

DIG DEEP
 ♥