A diagnosis has been made. She has Lupus. Not certain of all the details I have been doing a lot of reading. It is not cureable but is treatable. Right now we are just trying to get her eating regularly again and get some weight back on. She is back on steroids but that's it for now.
I am cooking all her food. After doing a lot of research I decided to go the Holistic diet route. It takes extra time but it's worth it!! She still isn't sleeping all night and we are still getting up a few times a night but we will get through it.
We love our Abby girl!! She is getting stronger everyday!!
♥
Monday, February 18, 2013
Thursday, February 14, 2013
Love
Abby stopped eating. I came home yesterday and I had in my mind that we would take her to the vet and have to put her down. She is skin and bones and looks awful. I tried to stay strong but I just wasn't. I would go back into my crying fits and then I would pray and then I would cry. I don't want to be dense about this....if it's her time I will accept it but the difficult thing has been nothing is showing up wrong with her so we want to fight for her life absolutely!
Then I question~
We are to come boldly to the throne with our requests. I pray boldly and I believe with all my heart God can heal but then there's this reality of 'What if it isn't God's will?' Is that just an excuse we make so we don't get our hopes up? I mean sure maybe it isn't God's will but is it so bad to just pray, leave it there, and believe BIG?!?!
My husband.....wow he amazes me! He had faith last night when I didn't. We are believing for a miracle here. The vet gave her a shot to help the nausea and we are praying she starts eating again.
This has been a roller coaster!!
Holy Jesus
God is so faithful and He wraps you in His love and it's such a feeling. Why do we doubt His goodness?
Why?
I pray on this Valentines Day you are filled and overflowing with His love so you can give and show it to others. I pray for a joy everlasting!
♥
Then I question~
We are to come boldly to the throne with our requests. I pray boldly and I believe with all my heart God can heal but then there's this reality of 'What if it isn't God's will?' Is that just an excuse we make so we don't get our hopes up? I mean sure maybe it isn't God's will but is it so bad to just pray, leave it there, and believe BIG?!?!
My husband.....wow he amazes me! He had faith last night when I didn't. We are believing for a miracle here. The vet gave her a shot to help the nausea and we are praying she starts eating again.
This has been a roller coaster!!
Holy Jesus
God is so faithful and He wraps you in His love and it's such a feeling. Why do we doubt His goodness?
Why?
I pray on this Valentines Day you are filled and overflowing with His love so you can give and show it to others. I pray for a joy everlasting!
♥
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
Abby update
So I confessed through writing and to a few people outloud that I believe Abby was healed. However days went by and she wasn't improving and when someone would ask how she was I started to become negative, concerned, worried. Now of course being worried is just a part of being a mama I'm sure however I don't want to be this little fake Jesus girl. When I say something I want to back it up and continue believing it. God is showing me to watch what comes out of my mouth and friends it is soooooooo difficult. My flesh is hurting bad! I just never truly realized how much negativity consumes me. The snarky comments, the judgments, shame on me!! No wonder I fell into depression all I spoke and all I thought was focused on ME ME ME and soooooooo negative!! I'm a work in progress but God is so sweet and powerful things happen when you start speaking His word outloud, when you start being positive and turning conversations around, yup I mess up but it's ok I'm not perfect!
So anyway off my soapbox and onto Abby. She is not improving so I took her for Xrays. The xrays once again showed no signs of cancer!!! PTL!!!! The vet wouldn't 100% diagnose what's going on (because I don't think she knows). All she could say was she has the lungs of a very old Lab (she's only 7). We got more meds which are making her sick and now she won't eat which is a side effect. Why do we take medicines that heal one thing but cause other issues? It blows my mind. She's also on lasix so we are up a few times during the night letting her out and the prednisone makes her thirsty so she likes to get up in the middle of the night for drinks as well. (yes we is sleep deprived) She still just lays around. She can barely take a few steps before laying down for a rest. It makes me sad. I feel helpless.
All I can do is trust God and enjoy every moment with her. Keep thanking Him for allowing me to take care of her.
She's such a sweety!!
Oh you want to know about the diet?
ummmmm
O_0
So anyway off my soapbox and onto Abby. She is not improving so I took her for Xrays. The xrays once again showed no signs of cancer!!! PTL!!!! The vet wouldn't 100% diagnose what's going on (because I don't think she knows). All she could say was she has the lungs of a very old Lab (she's only 7). We got more meds which are making her sick and now she won't eat which is a side effect. Why do we take medicines that heal one thing but cause other issues? It blows my mind. She's also on lasix so we are up a few times during the night letting her out and the prednisone makes her thirsty so she likes to get up in the middle of the night for drinks as well. (yes we is sleep deprived) She still just lays around. She can barely take a few steps before laying down for a rest. It makes me sad. I feel helpless.
All I can do is trust God and enjoy every moment with her. Keep thanking Him for allowing me to take care of her.
She's such a sweety!!
Oh you want to know about the diet?
ummmmm
O_0
Friday, February 1, 2013
Power
I have to start from the beginning on what I've been dealing with in my spiritual life.
It's been HARD HARD HARD
And I'm warning you now to have an opened mind because you are about to know me a little more and yes I am a crazy Jesus freak!
I have been met in a big way by God. He has answered a ton of prayers I have been praying consistently about the calling on my life. I found a church, I have been digging deep into His word, etc... You know the "normal" Christanese stuff. With that all said I still felt this dread around me. I still almost had a little bit of the depression emotions in me and I couldn't figure it out. Then I started praying the
"I surrender all" prayer
"God I'm moving out you move completely in" prayer
"More of you less of me" prayer
"God show me what in my life is coming in between you and me" prayer
Well, God has shown me my thoughts and my words are so so so so very important! What I speak is what's in my heart. What I think is what I will eventually speak out and so on. I have got to get a handle on my thoughts and what I speak.
Then He reveals to me that I have allowed the Spirit of Indimidation into my soul. This is a spirit from the enemy. The enemy uses this against us to get us off of God's path for our life. It explains the insecurity, the fears, the depression, the anxiety, the wishy washy behavior and confusion, and so much more.....
Storytime~
So a few weekends ago my husband left around 4 a.m. to go hunting. I was awake and went out to the kitchen, brought Abby in the bedroom, turned the night light on, did some facebook, and then tried to go back to sleep. I didn't get back to sleep because I heard a noise and in my mind it sounded like a woman screaming and crying. (Bobcats sound like this which I had no clue at the time) I stood straight up and said 'What do I do?' I was so scared and I shook so bad I couldn't move. I will not repeat the thoughts that started flowing through my mind but I will just let you know I watched murder crap on t.v. and.....ugh! So my entire weekend was spent in fear pacing around the house rebuking what's his face and reading bible verses outloud. Thinking I'm crazy yet?
I can't stress to you enough how much power God's word has. I'm telling you it was a fight for my life but He broke through the fear. I still have insecurities about being alone at night until the hubs comes home but wow it is nothing compared to that weekend. POWER IN TRUTH!! And this is how cool God works.... there is going to be a bible study on a book I just bought from John Bevere called Breaking The Spirit of Indimidation!! I am sooooooooo super excited!!!
Ok onto Abby
So again here comes the crazy just warning you~
If you would've saw Abby last week you would've seen how bad she was. She could barely walk, she got so out of breathe, and she was very spacey. She would just sit looking around the room it was awful. Oh and she picked weird places to lay like on my shoes in the closet.....strange. This dog honestly looked like death so when I took her to the vet and she said cancer I believed her. People there were a few times that weekend I thought she was taking her last breathes. There was one moment Sunday she came upstairs (which she hasn't done in a month) and she wanted in the closet. I thought she wanted to go hide to die. It was the saddest moment for me. So I just laid on the floor with her and talked to her and I layed my hands on her and was praying. At one moment I kid you not I pictured Jesus picking her up and holding her and then in the next moment she was doing her happy dance.
He healed our Abby I have no doubt in my mind!! NONE!
Monday when the husband and I started talking bloodwork I had this peace that she was fine. (of course I started to doubt from time to time that's how the mind works but you have to push those thoughts out)
Bloodwork came back yesterday and she has no cancer!!!!! Infact she has NO DISEASES at all!!!!! Just this skin infection we still need to deal with.
We aren't out of the woods yet but the power of prayer and the power of God's healing has been shown to me in such a HUGE way!!! You can tell me the vet shouldn't have diagnosed her like that without knowing. You can tell me she didn't have cancer from the start...tell me whatever your opinion is
God healed her
I'm a proud Jesus Freak!
♥
It's been HARD HARD HARD
And I'm warning you now to have an opened mind because you are about to know me a little more and yes I am a crazy Jesus freak!
I have been met in a big way by God. He has answered a ton of prayers I have been praying consistently about the calling on my life. I found a church, I have been digging deep into His word, etc... You know the "normal" Christanese stuff. With that all said I still felt this dread around me. I still almost had a little bit of the depression emotions in me and I couldn't figure it out. Then I started praying the
"I surrender all" prayer
"God I'm moving out you move completely in" prayer
"More of you less of me" prayer
"God show me what in my life is coming in between you and me" prayer
Well, God has shown me my thoughts and my words are so so so so very important! What I speak is what's in my heart. What I think is what I will eventually speak out and so on. I have got to get a handle on my thoughts and what I speak.
Then He reveals to me that I have allowed the Spirit of Indimidation into my soul. This is a spirit from the enemy. The enemy uses this against us to get us off of God's path for our life. It explains the insecurity, the fears, the depression, the anxiety, the wishy washy behavior and confusion, and so much more.....
Storytime~
So a few weekends ago my husband left around 4 a.m. to go hunting. I was awake and went out to the kitchen, brought Abby in the bedroom, turned the night light on, did some facebook, and then tried to go back to sleep. I didn't get back to sleep because I heard a noise and in my mind it sounded like a woman screaming and crying. (Bobcats sound like this which I had no clue at the time) I stood straight up and said 'What do I do?' I was so scared and I shook so bad I couldn't move. I will not repeat the thoughts that started flowing through my mind but I will just let you know I watched murder crap on t.v. and.....ugh! So my entire weekend was spent in fear pacing around the house rebuking what's his face and reading bible verses outloud. Thinking I'm crazy yet?
I can't stress to you enough how much power God's word has. I'm telling you it was a fight for my life but He broke through the fear. I still have insecurities about being alone at night until the hubs comes home but wow it is nothing compared to that weekend. POWER IN TRUTH!! And this is how cool God works.... there is going to be a bible study on a book I just bought from John Bevere called Breaking The Spirit of Indimidation!! I am sooooooooo super excited!!!
Ok onto Abby
So again here comes the crazy just warning you~
If you would've saw Abby last week you would've seen how bad she was. She could barely walk, she got so out of breathe, and she was very spacey. She would just sit looking around the room it was awful. Oh and she picked weird places to lay like on my shoes in the closet.....strange. This dog honestly looked like death so when I took her to the vet and she said cancer I believed her. People there were a few times that weekend I thought she was taking her last breathes. There was one moment Sunday she came upstairs (which she hasn't done in a month) and she wanted in the closet. I thought she wanted to go hide to die. It was the saddest moment for me. So I just laid on the floor with her and talked to her and I layed my hands on her and was praying. At one moment I kid you not I pictured Jesus picking her up and holding her and then in the next moment she was doing her happy dance.
He healed our Abby I have no doubt in my mind!! NONE!
Monday when the husband and I started talking bloodwork I had this peace that she was fine. (of course I started to doubt from time to time that's how the mind works but you have to push those thoughts out)
Bloodwork came back yesterday and she has no cancer!!!!! Infact she has NO DISEASES at all!!!!! Just this skin infection we still need to deal with.
We aren't out of the woods yet but the power of prayer and the power of God's healing has been shown to me in such a HUGE way!!! You can tell me the vet shouldn't have diagnosed her like that without knowing. You can tell me she didn't have cancer from the start...tell me whatever your opinion is
God healed her
I'm a proud Jesus Freak!
♥