So much has happened since my last post. I have had a lot change inside of me in only a few short weeks....
Let's start with the "diet"~
So some of my blog readers I see daily have heard me say I wanted to finish Insanity before the end of the year. Unfortunately that just isn't going to happen. I'm not going to say it's because I can't because I absolutely have it in me to finish! I have surprised myself a lot this year with plenty of accomplishments I have it in me (well through Christ I can do all things) to complete Insanity. These last few months I just haven't been eating properly to keep my energy up so I need to get that under control but I continue going to the gym three times a week with my buddy and I started exercising in the evenings again. (not so insane routines~ LOL) With all that said I want to take care of this body of God's and finish the year STRONG!! The year started on fire with me wanting to take care of myself to complete God's will~
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you....
It's been an awesome yet challenging year of "starting over" and I want to finish 2012 strong!
Let's do it together friends!! We can do this!!!
MADE FOR MORE!!
"Career"-
God has been so sweet to me! The more I spend time with Him and in His presence the more He shows me Himself...the more I get to know Him! I'm so in love!! I've been on this journey of figuring out His will for me but I ended up stressing myself out over it. So worried I was missing the path or taking the wrong ones, worried I messed it up and He gave up on me to find someone else to fulfill His will. My fears and insecurities have overshadowed any peace I was suppose to have at all in any of this. However through it all I have been consistent in my prayers asking for the Holy Spirit of discernment to pour into me, asking for revelation and wisdom and peace, and I finally FINALLY had a breakthrough! God revealed Himself to me in a HUGE outpouring of His spirit. He filled me up in such a way I can't even describe it to you! Almost like I've been born again and want to shout it to the world! Friends there is so much more to the Jesus girl thing! When we accept Christ as our savior that's not it.....we don't have to just try to get by there is so much more God has for us!! He wants us to walk in His spirit every single day! He wants to give us His power! Now I don't mean like Harry Potter power here friends.....not wizard style but Holy Spirit Jesus style. Please please study the bible and receive ALL He has for you! We CAN have victory but we can't just sit back and boss Jesus around asking Him to do it for us we must must must do our part in devotion, prayer, study, and walking the walk.
So here's a revelation I had these last few weeks:
Matthew 4:20- At once they dropped their nets and followed Him
WOW! The disciples dropped their nets AT ONCE! Why do I make it so hard to do that? What is my net?
Is my net my past? My current job? What?
Well, my net is ME! I had to die to ME ME ME! I had to move out so the Holy Spirit could fully move in!
Psalm 23:3-He refreshes and restores my life (my self); He leads me in the paths of righteousness [uprightness and right standing with Him—not for my earning it, but] for His name’s sake.
He refreshes & restores my soul... I have Joyce Meyer's amplified bible and check this out:
When David says God will restore our souls and our lives I believe he means that God will return us to the state or condition we were in before we erred from following the good plan God had predestined for us before our birth, or before Satan attacked us to draw us out of God's plan for our lives.
WOW WOW WOW!!
Where was I when I got off of the path? When did Satan attack me? Well I know exactly where I was and I don't necessarily think He is going to send me back to that particular job but I was believing to be a big part of music at that time and I allowed Satan to distract me with the way I was being treated and I got off of that path. I entered a season of depression and you can read some of my other blog posts for that story (I don't want to exhaust that story~ wink wink).
I was called for Worship!!!!!!!!!!!!! There is a particular moment I remember talking with my coworker about fourish years ago. I had just sung at the church I grew up in and I was so on fire for music! I had this strong sense that my dream of music was going to finally come true. However Satan got a stronghold on me and I allowed it! Yet in some crazy way I'm so thankful for that season. God has helped me come out stronger and I can now help those going through the same emotions or season in life.
The job I get paid to do is my ministry. No matter what position I am in I need to be a little ray of sunshine spreading the love of Jesus everywhere I go! The thing I'm good at is my calling. Singing is my calling (maybe even blogging LOL) and even if it never turns into my full time ministry I'll be ok. I have the Holy Spirit in me and I desire to continue studying the fruits of the spirit and live them out. To be a little ambassador for Jesus!!
Emotions~
Matthew 26:37- 3And taking with Him Peter and the two sons of Zebedee, He began to show grief and distress of mind and was deeply depressed.
Friends I get so disgusted with myself when I'm down in the dumps. I think since I have Jesus in me and I'm so blessed there is no reason I should get depressed. Guess what??????? Jesus was depressed!!! He was about to go to the cross and He began to become depressed. Who wants to die that way? Come on!! Yet He wanted to fulfill God's will so He pushed through those emotions! His disciples fell asleep they were not there for Him. Sometimes we feel so alone because nobody is there for us but Jesus knows how that feels and He wants to meet you where you are and comfort you. Rest in Him my friends, rest in His love. He died for you! Take that in for a moment! WOW!!
Life is challenging and I am human! I am not letting God down by becoming discouraged or depressed. It's going to happen from time to time but just knowing He is there for me to rest in....
ahhhhhhhhhh!!! makes me cry with tears of joy!
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