My Bulging Thighs

Storytime~

So this weekend I joined in with celebrating my lovely sister-in-law to be's graduation. She spent 6 long years and has completed her doctrine how exciting! Then the pictures of the weekend got posted and I wanted to cry me a river!! My thighs looked ginormous in those pants why didn't anyone tell me?!?!? I was about to embark on a hissy fit poor me journey like always and delete the pic but then I stopped in my tracks (this is new what's happening) and I thought about how hard I have worked to become two pant sizes smaller. Those pants I was wearing in the picture are TWO PANT SIZES SMALLER I need to focus on that! So what if I have this extra bulge invading my thigh and cellulite intrusion! I was wonderfully made! There are still changes to make and hard work to do and I will do it with God on my side! I am a Jesus Girl beautifully made~ Jesus picked me and He chose for me to have this amazing life! I am determined to take care of myself mentally, spiritually, & physically!! Just like my sissy in law working so hard and being rewarded a diploma in the end to show for her hard work I also will be rewarded for working hard & taking care of myself and I am so excited! No more bawl baby poopy pants Jesus Girl!! I am going to live right and not let a picture steal my joy!! Nope!! I WAS MADE FOR MORE THAN A HISSY FIT!!!!!

I pray you all have a wonderful Monday!! It may be dreary & rainy but praise God for the rain and create your own sunshine!!

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Reposition Your Attitude

I was on top of the world a few months ago on this Jesus high just praising Him for bringing me out of my pit and then all of a sudden BOOM I find myself struggling again to find that inner joy. This morning I took FOREVER finding something to wear to work. I am at that point where a lot of my clothes are HUGE and I look so frumpy wearing them but then I have "skinny" clothes I just can't fit into quite yet. I'm at a weight/size I never saw for very long so I'm struggling finding things to wear and I do NOT want to buy clothes I don't plan on fitting into long. So I felt myself getting frustrated and down. Then it hits me and I'm like ummmmmm hello?!? Why the heck are you down? You should be dancing around your closet because your clothes are too big!! What the heck are you grumbling about I mean come on really?!?? Friends it came to my mind that I absolutely am not going to be happy skinny!! Skinny is not going to bring me inner joy! I have to change the way I think in a BIG WAY!! Hello light bulb above my head how the heck are ya?! It's like this past week's lesson just came at me like a ton of bricks!! It's time to really dig deep and reposition my attitude. To continue to ask God to help me in this because I sure can't do it alone. I end up on depression meds when I try to do it alone and I am NOT going there again!!

I will be honest I have been churching, devotioning, & praying but I have been struggling with balancing God and getting myself in shape. So yesterday I made a date with Jesus.I realized I talk to Him tons throughout the day but I haven't truly just stop & prayed from beginning to end in quite a while. I told Him that I was going to sit down with Him and with my journal and my bible and just talk to Him and in the evening that's what I did. I'm not going to lie I totally fell asleep talking to Him but you know what I journaled and prayed a while (for me) before I did so and it felt so good. This morning I did my devotions and I actually prayed from beginning to end and did not move and go do something else. Today I feel really good!! I am excited! I am expecting God for great things in my life and I'm repositioning my attitude! I had a nail appointment today that I was so excited about but it was canceled due to the tech having poison. I had a moment of pout and then I said you know what life happens I will move on! I am not letting a stupid canceled nail appointment (that I can live without anyway) steal my joy! NOPE NOT HAPPENING! I was given a precious life to live I'm living it right!! It may be rainy today and I may need to go to the grocery store (which is one of my least favorite things to do) but I'm going to create my own sunshine and walk around the Weis Store smiling because life is precious. I need to show God's love and let it be contagious just like the poison the nail tech has. It's time to get my mind off myself and my feelings and onto others and continue to ask for a renewed mind and ask who I can encourage or bless today!

We will live this life to the fullest and shine baby shine!!!!

Have a fabulous day!

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What are you thinking about?

Hello Beautifuls!!

So I had a million things to do on my lunch break today (yes I'm being dramatic but stick with me here). I had a chiro appt (have to keep my twisted back in place), wanted to stop at Radio Hut and get a remote (since my angelic dog decided she needed a snack so sweet of her to help herself), I forgot my lunch so I decided since Radio Hut is right by McD's I am going because I CAN~ I have the power to stay within my plan and I want BACON so I got a bacon ranch salad with grilled chicken and an unsweetened tea. I only used about a tablespoon of ranch dressing wahoo!! Victory baby sweet victory!!! My emotions didn't even do a poor me why can't I have that juicy burger I smell pity party!! SCORE!! (i'm dancing a jig right now wish you could see it) So then I had to stop at the church and pick up the wonderful supper mommy dearest made for us. (awwwwwwww go ahead join in awwwwwwwwwww) She complimented my outfit and I excitedly explained that my sweaters (I wear a lot of longer sweater type things over my shirts~ my husband calls them frocks~ no idea but had to share) ANyhoo I excitedly told her how my sweaters don't get caught in my butt as much!! LADIES THIS IS VERY EXCITING FOR ME!!!!! I had the climbing butt and it was practically reaching for my shoulders which caused my sweaters/shirts to get lost in there and not find their way out! I was constantly tugging at my shirts when I would get up off my seat it is so annoying! Well girlfriends I still tug out of habit but I realized my shirt ain't lost IT HAS BEEN FOUND THANK YOU JESUS SWEET AMAZING GRACE!! And I really thought I was going somewhere with this story but turns out I'm really not...... I just wanna brag about my shrinking behind and tell you that you can do it too!! You have the power through God's strength and VICTORY tastes sweet!! DROP AND GIVE ME 50! NOW!!!!!

So last night I went home put on my sweats and did absolutely NOTHING!! I was mentally drained and just needed to stop & get myself together. I was still feeling a bit down so I decided to pick up my bible and just read. I thought well since I did tell you ladies to read psalms when you are depressed maybe that would be a great place to start. So I said a little prayer and opened to psalms and I believe with all my heart it was not by accident what I came across. Psalm 78 recaps the stinking Israelites wondering the wilderness trying to get to the promise land. REALLY GOD? AGAIN? This story is seriously getting old! So I'm reading and I'm pondering and it's just so clear how our thoughts get in the way of EVERYTHING!! God parted the Red Sea, he made rivers flow out of rocks, he made it rain manna so they could eat for pete's sake (who is Pete I'd like to meet him) and these people saw it with their own eyes!!! Ummmmmmm I would hope seeing that with my very own eyes would've been enough for me to do whatever God told me to do(you never know with me) but the Israelites still sinned and forgot of His miracles. They kept whining and moaning and focusing on how hard things were and most of them never made it to the promise land because of it. I don't know about you but I am getting my butt to the "promise land" peeps! I am working on my stinkin' thinkin' and I will have victory!! I am enjoying this life I have!! What a precious gift that I refuse to waste anymore of! Keep on trucking my beautiful people victory is near!!! YOU CAN DO THIS!!!

Love Yourself Today: Living by the Word is a way of loving and taking care of yourself. I encourage you to ask God to speak to you personally through His word. -Joyce Meyer Love Out Loud devotional

 

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Praying for you!

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